addicted to
i'm not here to win
i'm here to leave a legacy
danger: angst ahead.
it's the passion that drives you
endorphins
pain
exhaustion
chasing this insane dream
perfection
tagboard ;
guestbook
HERE I AM
ONCE AGAIN
I'M TORN INTO PIECES
CAN'T DENY IT
CAN'T PRETEND
shat. still aching like nuts... time trial tmr. yahoo google. i think i'm going to kill my muscles.
don't know why i'm so angry. angry with myself that is. i'm angry with myself! got this throbbing headache. dizziness and nausea also. supposedly side effects from the famotidine.
side effects of famotidine include constipation, diarrhea, fatigue, headache, insomnia, muscle pain, nausea, vomitting, agitation, anemia, confusion, depression, easy burising or bleeding, hallucinations, hair loss, irregular heartbeat, rash, visual changes, yellowing of the skin or eyes
i swear, with side effects like that, i wonder why i'm taking the darn thing anyway. it's pretty effective in reducing the stomach acid production. but at the price of that?! it's insane.
and that endoscopy shit where they shoved a garden hose down my throat. that was trauma. and when all the doctor says to you is "you may have gastritis", makes me wonder wth i was doing there. hopefully the biopsy reveals sth. cos if it doesn't, i'm going to... do something extreme. hah. annoying annoying annoying!
BROKEN UP
DEEP INSIDE
BUT YOU WON'T GET TO SEE THE TEARS I CRIED
i feel like smashing a tub of lard in my face. i'm so fat i could feed a whole village with my fats. i'm so fat that i could keep an oil lamp burning for a whole year! with my fats. i'm too fat for me i'm too fat for me.
NO I DON'T CRY
ON THE OUTSIDE
ANYMORE
wahliews. i'm so angsty. damn weird. my brain isn't functioning properly.